the problem is not the chain around my angle and the way in which it is attached to the winding machine. nor is it the chain around my wrist that is pulling me in the opposite direction. i know how to cope with being stretched and feeling torn. the difficulty is the rope around my waist, attached to the leg of a bull, which is charging away at a right angle to the torture table. i feel i'm up against more than i can possibly cope with. but then that's again just how i feel. in reality, i have no choice but to cope and prepare for the next torture table.

eh. big deal.