i don't think i ever set out to make mistakes. all i want ever want is to do the right thing, the right way at the right time. and i think that's true for most people. are we under so much pressure to perform that we dare not allow ourselves a chance to experiment? i have noticed that these days i do what i feel is safe.. or what i think is least likely to get me into trouble. i've begun putting reputation before initiative. i try too hard. but no more. i accept i cannot achieve perfection and i relax. and i let my instincts help me compensate for factors i cannot change.

and i'm a happier woman.