i hear all is fair in love and war. no wonder we live in such an unfair world. rarely do we find ourselves not in either of the mentioned states. we constantly rewrite the rules of daily life to suit our passionate purposes. i find that i cannot hope for peace anymore than i can hope for justice. but i sure can hope for - and attain - something more precious than the both: the ability to see what is happening for what it truly is. i don't want to be inflamed - or biased. i don't want to be unduly angry or overly sympathetic. i want to be calm. i want to be wise. i want to be neutral.