change is always much easier to accept if it is gradual. when something is sudden, i feel suspicious. my natural instinct is to argue with whatever has altered. i feel a little incredulous at the moment. i'm simply not sure what to make of the way in which my life has begun to alter so radically and rapidly. it's not that i dislike the new situation – more that i mistrust it. how has it arisen? for how long will it stay the same?

maybe i should just consider myself fortunate...