every so often i do dumb things. i make crazy moves. i reach daft decisions. i guess i can blame it on the human nature. it cannot be helped. do you know what is silliest of all? it is when i do something wise, generous, timely and appropriate and then start deciding that it must have been a stupid mistake! too often, i applaud myself for acts of inanity whilst feeling apologetic about acts of extreme profundity and importance.

i'm confused.