sometimes

i have to use a process of trial and error in order to work out what makes me feel good – and bad.

i can have any number of theories or philosophies.

i can analyze and strategize until i am blue in the face. but reality is a very different thing.

i'm having a ‘learning experience’. and to my surprise i'm discovering that all is not as i once thought it would be. and that’s absofuckinglutely wonderful!