my ambitions are neither moderate nor modest.

and that's part of the reason why i feel so.. flummoxed.

i can't really see myself getting what i want. yet i can neither see myself settling for anything less. and this is not a desirable position to be in at anytime!

maybe i should decide to go for the golden goal, come hell or high water. or maybe i should aim for the silver or the bronze and decide that this is a medal i can take real pride in wearing.