i am a prisoner of my emotions, my needs and my fears.

i need to sit back and think a little.. i still know what i want to do - its just that circumstances that i'm in have changed somewhat.. and it might not be possible to get to where i want to be from where i am.

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you know how it is when you accidentally close a door much harder than you intended to, and the noise makes everyone look round at you? right now, i kind of feel like that. the force and the suddenness with which things are happening have taken me by surprise. lately, i've been in a phase where things are vague and undecided, maybe this sharp break is a good thing.