there is an image that i just can't get out of my head: a picture that keeps painting itself on the canvas of my imagination. it's half tantalising, half terrifying. i don't even know whether to stare or close myeyes and hope that it will go away. now it preoccupies me even more. i feel that nothing can be resolved in my damned chaotic life until i've fully explored my dream. if it does turn out to be a nightmare, i must teach myself to wake up from it. and if it shows up as a truly inspiring vision, i hope i can see the magic in it.

i don't know what i'm seeing.. i may take a while.. but i hope i'll be comfortable with it when it finally does make sense.