i used to crave a safe, stable lifestyle until i actually got one (for a brief period). then, i wondered where the excitement had gone. i tend to seek solutions to my problems until all of them have been resolved - at which point i realize i have nothing left to complain about. then, because i am nothing if not contrary, i swiftly start to create fresh uncertainty and to invent new difficulties. someone said i have a chance to become stronger, more secure, less fraught and less driven by drama. in theory, i'll thrive on this. in practice? well, it depends on whether i really feel ready to stop chasing rainbows and flirting with disaster!