there are many things in this life that i dont understand.. maybe that's why i stick to anything that appears simple and straightforward. it doesn't matter whether i like it or not, if i can at least understand it. i can enjoy disapproving and complaining, safe in the knowledge that i know what i'm reacting to. but i feel the most rewarding experiences in life invariably come from an encounter with the new. i feel i'm entering vulnerable territory now.. my heart is being touched. my imagination is being inflamed. i so do want to run for cover.. but maybe i should just enjoy this valuable confusion.

maybe i will enjoy.