things have gone far enough. now they need to stand still for a while. i need to rest, regroup, rethink and definitely recover. progress needs to be evaluated and strategies modified accordingly. for a while now, its seems i've been hurtling along what seems to be a straight road. much has happened and much has changed. if this is all for the better, then i need to integrate it into the rest of my life. but it doesn't feel like its for the better.. so i need to recognize as much and make some clear choices.