is there a method to my madness?

of course!

what seems, to the rest of you, like a chaotic situation is one that i've intuitively engineered.

it suits my purpose.
it meets my need.

i'll be fine (as long as i don't suddenly start doubting myself).

i cant apply cold logic to the instintive hunch that i'm following... that'd be like putting fuel into the frame of a bicycle in the hope that this will make it go faster!

what works for me is what's right for me.

and i know what that is.

so yeah! rock on!