the longer and harder i think about my direction in life, the more confused i become. there's no such thing as a perfect solution.. no wonderful magical way to make everyone happy. sigh. i do one thing and i end up screwing up a situation i sorely wanted to make safe. do another thing and i end up putting another factor in jeopardy. and if i dont do anything, i end up upsetting everyone!

fuck it. i'll do what my heart says..