what i need is a plane ticket. i'll even settle for a train, a boat or a bus. i'm just extremely keen to get away. this desire to explore new worlds is not practical.. but definitely healthy. maybe i just need to translate this desire into an intellectual journey. hm.. maybe i should immerse myself into an interestingly absorbing subject. what if this fails? well, i could take an emotional trip. well, that's a hazard to the well being of people around me for i know not what course this trip will take and i, sure as hell, am bad at guiding it.

all i need to do is embrace something new. and when i do, i'll come to appreciate that the old is not worthless or hopeless. it merely needs to be seen from a fresh perspective.