how long has it been since i updated?

a week?

well, lets just say my lazy ass went to sleep.

i have so many issues to resolve.. so many fears to conquer.. so many dreams to fulfill.. and so many kisses to give.

Issues:

1. trying to decide if i should take up an internship..
x-x-x-x-x-x- JDS Uniphase - in their optical networking dept.
x-x-x-x-x-x- CIBC World Markets - intern with the investment bankers.

or just study for the CCNA and take a few more classes and try and finish up my next may... so i can directly join Cisco..

hey, where did my issue number 2 disappear??

3. trying to get my ass to the gym. its so hard tho.

Fears:

1. swimming. i cant even step foot near the shallow area now. i still freak out at the thought of diving into a 10 feet deep pool.

2. taking those damned classes this summer.. they're so frightening. not that they're hard.. nothing's tough when you actually work.. but still i feel scared. my heart starts palpitating. man, do i glisten at the thought or what!?

Dreams:

1. flying. oh god! that's one dream i want to fulfill asap! i want to be that bird...

2. being appointed the CEO of Oni Systems. this will not happen in a hundred years. so it's better left as a motivational dream. Something i can look to for inspiration.

3. be a member of the Rutgers Cheerleading squad. ha! like that's going to happen in a million years! i dont look like one.. but i'm too much of a geek for them to even look at me. :-(
*sniff*
maybe i should trash this dream totally. cuz it makes me sad everytime i think of it.

Kisses

best left alone.