its so hard to sum up the profundity, the intensity, the difficulty and yet also, the true magnificence of any current situation. it feels like i'm honouring an obligation and at the same time protecting someone vulnerable. while summoning great strength and great determination can be extremely positive - i'm definitely not finding any of this easy.

the things that keep me going are partly faith and partly fear. do i really know what else i can do? maybe not.. and now i really can't stop

i'm never going to give up on this cause that means so much to me.. i'm just waiting for a breakthrough... and i know there will be one soon.