i've realized i can't make bulls do the cha-cha-cha..

i give up.

all i wanted was a little understanding in this extremely difficult phase that i'm going through.
ma was right.
i should stop expecting people to understand me.. to motivate me.. to encourage me.

but it's so hard not to expect. isn't it human nature to expect from loved ones?

and i'm definitely human. and i do expect.

and i get hurt.

so i will not allow myself to get hurt anymore.